I'm slacking...

I'm slacking badly...it has been a minute since I blogged and Lord knows I need to. So lately i have contracted the green-eyed disease called jealousy... It seems like everyone around me are moving forward in their relationships except me!!!! I have two friends that are married, my best friend moving in with her boyfriend (she has a ring), and now my cousin is getting married. With an exception on one of them I have been in my relationship the longest. Of course, I want to be all in love and planning a wedding with the man I love the most. We used to talk about getting married all the time and how much we wanted to be together but now I am left with uncertainties. I want to be loved and to feel loved. I'm not saying I have to get married tomorrow I just want some security in my relationship. I want to know (need to know) that we are going to be together...help me father....