I'm slacking...

I'm slacking badly...it has been a minute since I blogged and Lord knows I need to. So lately i have contracted the green-eyed disease called jealousy... It seems like everyone around me are moving forward in their relationships except me!!!! I have two friends that are married, my best friend moving in with her boyfriend (she has a ring), and now my cousin is getting married. With an exception on one of them I have been in my relationship the longest. Of course, I want to be all in love and planning a wedding with the man I love the most. We used to talk about getting married all the time and how much we wanted to be together but now I am left with uncertainties. I want to be loved and to feel loved. I'm not saying I have to get married tomorrow I just want some security in my relationship. I want to know (need to know) that we are going to be together...help me father....

Just an update...

I haven't wrote lately so here goes...Sunday I went to church and had a great time. I really got something out of being at church. I learned that I am destined for greatness and I have to stop living the mediocre life. I want to be a great woman of God but to be quite honest I'm scared. I'm scared in a good way and a bad way. The bad way is what scares me. I know I shouldn't worry about what people, my friends, or my boyfriend may think or act towards me but I can't help it. I'm only human. I know what God has for me is the best but it's hard dealing with doubts and insecurities. I pray for God to show me the way with everything in my life but I'm having a hard time seeing past my reality. What I want out of life the most is to have a strong walk with God, a great career, a loving husband, and 4 kids but are those things possible? To top it all off the worst thing I might have to face is the man I love may not be the man for me. What is important is what God wants for me. I pray for my relationship everyday because I do believe this is my soul mate. I'm confuse on this new journey I am embarking on but I know with God leading the way I will be alright.

Until Next Time,
Teeda...