Emotional Rollercoaster

I constantly feel like I'm on an Emotional Rollercoaster because of this man. My feelings are never the same. One minute I'm happy and the next I'm sad, lonely, and depressed all wrapped up in one. I know alll relationships have their ups and downs but this is becoming to much. It is like living in a sea of unknown. He says he loves me and want to be with me but I constantly feel like he is pushing me away only to bring me back in once again. It hurts because I feel so lonely and I rather hear the truth anyday than to be in a constant condition of hurt. I told he how I felt once but of course I made it sound all nice trying to protect his feelings, hoping he would understand where I am coming from. This time when we talk I have to lay it all out on the table. My feelings have to come first now. I need to be heard and some changes have to be made. No relationship can work like this. In the 3 years we have been together we never had any problems but now it seems like hell has broken loose on this relationship. Maybe that was the QUIET BEFORE THE STORM!!!!

My 1st Blog!!!!

This is my very 1st blog (yay me!!!). Lately I have been going though a lot and dealing with a lot of things emotionally and I need some type of emotional outlet and I figured a blog would be the perfect way to keep my mind mentally sane. Soooo, I don't know where to begin so I'm just gonna start randomly...Well, my Princess is about to turn 1!!! I'm not so ready for her to grow up. It feels like yesterday I was bring her home from the hospital. Before I know it my baby will be starting school but I guess I can't keep her a baby forever. This year has really has it's ups and downs but I'm making it. I also, have begun the process of getting closer to God. If I ever need anything in my life at this very moment it is God. I need him like never before. I'm new at this so I'm looking for ways to let him into my life and to take control. I realize that I am not perfect and I am nothing without him. I want God to come in and mold me into the woman he wants me to be. On another note: I'm graduating this year!!! There is more to come in future blogs!!!!